a is for apple. this is the way
i tasted the sweetness in learning,
crunching the flesh of the fruit
even if it meant losing my bottom right tooth.
b is for badge. it’s the ones
my school, my teacher, my friends
gifted me. they were not earned
by reaching an A, just simply
for being me.
c is for carbohydrates. they’re found
in fruits and rice, things i eat
on a daily basis. oh, i remember chilli.
c is also hot, spicy, chilli – surprisingly,
i’d love to try it again.
d is not depression. d is a decision,
dopamine-induced words by
my favourite Dr Seuss.
as childish as it might seem,
lights around me shall never grow dim.
but e is for emotional, and sometimes
i say it when i eat eggplants.
my face is mushed with resignation,
i hide it in self-deprecation. in this
tough time, e will be an exercise;
teach me how to leave this feeling behind.
s, as i remember, has to be a sword,
a double edged one, a reminder
that lies can go both ways.
i swing with force and metaphors
on paper grounds, study!
u is u. f is f. they will be letters
and figures in my hieroglyphic world.
there will be inexorably heavy traffic,
or days when you want to buy fruits
but find the store closed.
forgot it was a public holiday.
today, forget you learnt the abcs.
forget c is certificate. when it’s time
to apply for your next phase of life,
remember to use these alphabets well –
because R is for Resplendent,
and your strong heart
shall never fail this.
there i go with a childlike tone not everyone’s gonna like it but this is especially for me because i haven’t done something for myself in a while. a looonnggg while. this being said, i do hope that people remember: grades are never the most important aspect of life, and we definitely shouldn’t over-glorify its impact. take the time to find ourselves, find things we love, find hope again. albeit this messy world, there are still places of solace, but above all you are still loved; you’ll take heart and find glove-fitting pillows of rest. go take a walk along the seashores. observe the stars from below. amidst the blank black space, lights will guide you home.